My week kicked off pretty well.. for some reason, which is still not so clear to me
Im counting my blessings and being grateful for life
God has bless't me in so many ways, and today, i am forging ahead with Hope.
Im clearing up my shelf racks, one dream at a time and it feels so good.
And this song, speaks volumes about not giving up on what you believe
Take this music and use it... Let it take you away
Oh! GLEE... My Sanctuary
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
I GOT TO THINKING
so sometimes we feel overwhelmed by alot of things that we are facing.
right now im in the middle of it all.... fitting into a new job, trying to decide what it is i wonna do with my life, family, friends and their many issues, lost loved ones who are still alive...basicaly just life.
but amidst all of this, how do i reay feel? am i happy or sad?
today, well as i blog, the feeling inside of me that i know and feel is simply 'awkward'
so i just started out on this job. i like it and all but i feel soo 'NEW'
These people just keep staring everytime i walk past them
its so unfair. lol
now im here blogging when i shud be in the kitchen eating,all because i think i'll fall halfway through the hallway.... those eyes just wont leave me be. and that andrew of a kitchen boy wont help me bring my lunch to my desk.kmt
lmao
smh at myself.
so yea, enuff with the paranoia.
i plan to make the best of this new job and take advantage of all the opportunities that come my way
Client services could be fun and also it has its down side..... being 'the face' of my company, lol, as im the first one you see or speak with when you walk in or call the office, i hav to keep my appearance in check. imagine now, babes have to be baffing up compulsorily. sigh
but then again, it leaves me time to do stuff i wonna do. i.e. shop online, skype, read a book, tweet,chat all day, study for my exams and al of that.
so, today, i choose to start afresh, and make a move
i sucked at my last job and my last job sucked at me in return
i took a lot of things lightly after a while and became very slack
well, even though i believe that the company had its own issues which ofcourse led to my repulsive attitude, in the end i still believe it takes 2. I ALSO MADE MY MISTAKES.
today im not following a particular chain of thought, im just blogging as it hits.
i think im due for a rebranding, as my ex prescribed to me while we were still together barely a month ago.
i wonna start doing STUFF
creating and indulging in new interests.
letting go of all the hate and guilt built up in me
setting principles and ethics that will govern my life
i just really wonna grow, so that when i look back at mine's in say 5years, i wud nod
i hate that ive had to smh at my past for as long as i can remember.
its one thing for people to think one thing of you and its a totally different thing for u to think of urself as something.
last nite, before i went to sleep i realised something strange had happened between a friend and i.i tried to do the whole 'not caring' thing but truth is, i was bothered. and somewhere inside of me i just wished the whole world cud be happy with me. but then again, i realised thats not the way the world works.
and there is nothing i can do to change that, instead, i wud do everything to change the way i handle such situations.
my thoughts precisely.
sometimes its soo hard to not care but with years of experience with constant heartbreaks and dissapointments, i figure its harder to be bothered.
i could really do without the excess baggage.
i figure that i dont need everyone's opinion to matter, or eyes to feel seen.
and gladly, the best thing ive realised out of all these 'figures' is that i still care but not as much as i used to.
for some, they were born that way, for the rest of us, we realise that we really shudnt give as much shit as we do. lol
the more i stay with self, the more i understand mine's.
and as i do some soul searching and come up with more stuff to make this girl tick i shall blog, but for now, let me attempt going to the kitchen......... these pangz r deadly. lol
love life,
be fabulous
mwah!
right now im in the middle of it all.... fitting into a new job, trying to decide what it is i wonna do with my life, family, friends and their many issues, lost loved ones who are still alive...basicaly just life.
but amidst all of this, how do i reay feel? am i happy or sad?
today, well as i blog, the feeling inside of me that i know and feel is simply 'awkward'
so i just started out on this job. i like it and all but i feel soo 'NEW'
These people just keep staring everytime i walk past them
its so unfair. lol
now im here blogging when i shud be in the kitchen eating,all because i think i'll fall halfway through the hallway.... those eyes just wont leave me be. and that andrew of a kitchen boy wont help me bring my lunch to my desk.kmt
lmao
smh at myself.
so yea, enuff with the paranoia.
i plan to make the best of this new job and take advantage of all the opportunities that come my way
Client services could be fun and also it has its down side..... being 'the face' of my company, lol, as im the first one you see or speak with when you walk in or call the office, i hav to keep my appearance in check. imagine now, babes have to be baffing up compulsorily. sigh
but then again, it leaves me time to do stuff i wonna do. i.e. shop online, skype, read a book, tweet,chat all day, study for my exams and al of that.
so, today, i choose to start afresh, and make a move
i sucked at my last job and my last job sucked at me in return
i took a lot of things lightly after a while and became very slack
well, even though i believe that the company had its own issues which ofcourse led to my repulsive attitude, in the end i still believe it takes 2. I ALSO MADE MY MISTAKES.
today im not following a particular chain of thought, im just blogging as it hits.
i think im due for a rebranding, as my ex prescribed to me while we were still together barely a month ago.
i wonna start doing STUFF
creating and indulging in new interests.
letting go of all the hate and guilt built up in me
setting principles and ethics that will govern my life
i just really wonna grow, so that when i look back at mine's in say 5years, i wud nod
i hate that ive had to smh at my past for as long as i can remember.
its one thing for people to think one thing of you and its a totally different thing for u to think of urself as something.
last nite, before i went to sleep i realised something strange had happened between a friend and i.i tried to do the whole 'not caring' thing but truth is, i was bothered. and somewhere inside of me i just wished the whole world cud be happy with me. but then again, i realised thats not the way the world works.
and there is nothing i can do to change that, instead, i wud do everything to change the way i handle such situations.
my thoughts precisely.
sometimes its soo hard to not care but with years of experience with constant heartbreaks and dissapointments, i figure its harder to be bothered.
i could really do without the excess baggage.
i figure that i dont need everyone's opinion to matter, or eyes to feel seen.
and gladly, the best thing ive realised out of all these 'figures' is that i still care but not as much as i used to.
for some, they were born that way, for the rest of us, we realise that we really shudnt give as much shit as we do. lol
the more i stay with self, the more i understand mine's.
and as i do some soul searching and come up with more stuff to make this girl tick i shall blog, but for now, let me attempt going to the kitchen......... these pangz r deadly. lol
love life,
be fabulous
mwah!
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