life oh! life

its about me so i dont think i need your seal of endorsement, your approval, or your opinion.
this, right here, is 'the attitude'
most times we are bothered about what people say, think and how they live their lives....as opposed to what we really wanna do, we put other people first.
i think its a mind thing. when we accept ourselves, we get to realise, that all that really matters is US. ME!
sometimes i forget about the important things in life and dwell on the irrelevances, other times, i think sooo much, it hurts. most times, i just dont wanna be bothered by any and everything, then there are the days im ready and willing to take on the cares of my life, family and even the world. sometimes im hurt and i dont wanna give second chances to myself or the people around me...Other times i love, and i just let it all flow.
i could go on and on about these feelings that i get everyday, now and then, but it all comes down to the fact that everyday i live is about making an effort. it takes a push and a decision to get stuff done. to love or hate, to cry or laugh, to sleep or to walk....basically to even do nothing.
sometimes i dont wanna do nuffin, sometimes i wanna do everything in such little time, i realise admist all this that im human. its not everyday im happy, sometimes im let down by the ones i love or try to love, family, friendz, collegues, some other times im a let down, but then again, im human.
i dont seek to blame my flaws on my anatomy, but i realise and acknowledge these weaknesses that are perculiar to me.
i hav learnt amongst other things to love myself (im still well on my way) regardless of how i look or feel. i may not be the perfect '10', i may hav graduated with average grades and sometimes not seem to co-ordinate my thoughts in a straight pattern, i may suck at job interviews and rock at drinking delicious wine and sweet/sour cocktails, but i think like i said, its about realising these weaknesses and trying to do ur best just for you and for no one else's consent :)
be happy, try ur best and dont take shit too personal.
its not a problem to solve, its just life, its a mystery to understand.

thoughts

i think there are people and there are songs.... there are days and there are nights.... there are highs, drys, and there are lows.... there are Loverz and there are friendz. there are ups and there are downs. there are originals and there are wanna-be's.....there are all sorts of things that surround us, but (in the end)its the little things that matter. the things that touch us and leave us with an impression... for some reason, we dont remain the same.
i woke up this morning and felt sooo tired, with nothing to motivate me for the week, but, on my way to work, i heard ASA singing over the radio and it touch't me...again. then i felt something leap inside of me and i realized its up to me to make my week woteva i want it to be.
i know there are days when i know i should do better, but for some reason i just dont. and other days im soooo on top of my game. the rest days, i just sit there in the middle wondering why i dont try as much and push on those lazy days.... and im yet to figure that out.
but today, i realize that therez no need to fear. life is a book and wheneva u choose to write, thats when ur story begins,. therz no need to fret or fear the unknown, that way you'll never know, live it one day at a time..... the rest is still unwritten.
so be happy today, say what u wanna say, let your hair down, tell that person how u feel, listen to that song that makes u feel good, tell your boss HAPPY BIRTHDAY! *giggles* take that risk, start that diet, live and be hopeful. dont put yourself down for anyone to trample... you are GOLDEN!!!
okay, so my boss just walk't in, hav to go make him coffee.... did i mention its his birthday? lol.
Hav a lovely week people....
stay FABULOUS!!!